Everything is New, and Different

Wow... What a long year.
I cannot believe my last post was in June. That is when it all started to get super busy and stressful. We were doing too many things and I didn't feel up to doing anything. I fell back into my old self of depression and sitting around all day. Doing nothing.
I was the worst. I didn't clean. I hated cooking. I did the laundry but never put it away. My daughter played the Xbox a lot because I didn't feel like doing anything else. Of course she didn't mind though. She loves playing Minecraft on there. But I felt bad. And I couldn't make myself feel better. Nothing was working as it usually did. Even when I took my meds. It was getting miserable for everyone. I gained so much weight and that made it worse for me. But it wasn't clicking that I was doing it to myself. I would cry all the time and then tell myself bad things. I did this, I should suffer. I'm not sure I would have lasted very long like that.
Then I fell asleep on the couch, in the middle of the day, and had the worst dream I have ever had.
I don't want to get into it, I still cry whenever I think about it. But it made me realize what I was doing and who I was hurting. There was 2 paths in front of me and I had to choose the right one or it was going to be over.
I sat down and wrote out two schedules. One for everyday and chores. The other for working out.
I had to keep to them and better my family, while I better myself. It was going good, then we moved in October. We finally bought a house and it felt amazing!! I was super stressed but once we got into the house, I got back at it and will continue. We have been so blessed to get this house and the extra room it gives us. We have a classroom for our daughter and an extra room downstairs that my husband and I are turning into a home gym!
My husband surprised me and made the extra room upstairs into a craft room/office for me.
He is the best!!
Its amazing how you can change your mindset and your attitude, and life turns around too. Law of Attraction is something that I had heard of and kind of believed in. Now I want to read more about it and see what it is truly about. I think it is a great idea to put positivity out into the world and not just for yourself.
We do more things as a family now. We took our daughter to the Zoo for Howl-O-Ween and Christmas was in our new home. That was exciting. We made gift for our loved ones and made cards for everyone. There was a lot of glitter :) I also made another sweater/test knit!
I'm excited for the new year. We are happy and healthy, that's all I want for anyone and everyone. Call me cheesy, that's okay. I like cheese.
I have big plans and goals for this year. I hope I get them all done. I will! One day at a time!
Next goal is to make my daughter a sweater dress. She has her birthday coming up and we are going to make cupcakes together! A lot of frosting clean up in my future :)
Bring it on!!

 Link to the test knit pattern
https://www.ravelry.com/projects/KaylaFC/all-tied-up-sweater

Have a Great New Year!!!
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Time For Normal

I have been non stop for over a month now and I am so ready for a break. School came to an end and we boxed up all the First grade things we didn't need for Second grade and sent it all back.
My husband can sometimes travel for his job and this time it was far enough away, and for a week, that they got him a Hotel room. We went with him and had a mini vacation next to the coast. It was such great weather and we had fun. Cell reception wasn't always the best, so I took a break from that.
But the whole week we were gone, I was test knitting. Got all that done and the Pattern released last Friday. I will link it below, it was super cute!
Every weekend we have been hiking and going into the mountains. We will probably continue that, as we all like to do it. No service out there at all lol
I have been so busy and out of sorts for too long. I am getting back to my schedule and will be posting, knitting, crocheting, crafting, reading, and living my usual boring but lovely life, more now!!
I have that feeling that you sometimes get after going on a real vacation for a period of time, then when you come back you don't quite know what to do with your life lol any one else ever get that?!?
It's weird.
Took a break from making my moms poncho to test knit, so I will be getting back to that this week as well. Starting a Mother and Daughter Poncho Pattern after I finish. I have an idea for it and drew a small picture of what I want. I cannot find a pattern like it, so I think I will try to make one myself.
Doesn't seem like much writing it all down. Well some of it at least.
I think that is about it for now and a good little update. Also, thinking having two "blogs" isn't working for me :/
Anywho, enjoy the rest of your week and thank you for visiting!!

BombSHELL Crop Top I test knitted
https://www.ravelry.com/projects/KaylaFC/bombshell-crop-top

 

All done!!

I finished my test knit sweater and I love it!!
I will put a link to the pattern as soon as it is released and I will make a post with pictures of mine  finished. Now I can work on my many other projects I have. I want to make a schedule and try to keep on track with them all. I have a spare planner somewhere and I think this would be a good use for it. Wow, a knitting planner?!?! It actually sounds awesome, if I'm going to be honest.
All my knitting and planning in one big book! I should look to see if they make something like that already. Amazon!?!
I also have my first idea for a new pattern I want to make. It looks good in my head but might be hard for me to write out. We shall see!
We are thinking of going to the Zoo sometime soon. I will definitely be taking some pictures of that, if we go. My daughter and husband love animals. Going to Zoos and Aquariums are their favorite places. They are so cute!!
In other news, I am down 4 pounds. My hubby is still wanting another baby. I do too, but I am more cautious and my anxiety gets in the way.
I will be talking to my doctor about it when my yearly comes up soon.
I think that is it for now.
Pattern post coming soon.
I will leave you with a sneak peek of it here...

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Thanks for stopping by and have a great weekend!!