Anxiety

So my last post was the 12th and on the 13th, I had a major anxiety attack. I haven't had a big one like that in almost two years. It lasted two weeks and I am still recovering but more in control. After about a week and half of not eating and only keeping sprite down, I was eating at least once a day and more fluids. I was dehydrated and weak. I couldn't do anything and that made my depression worse. I finally started eating on my regular schedule. My husband came home from work with a cold, that my daughter and I got. I, of course, got it the worst and my nose it still runny and I have a cough as I am typing. But, I'm getting over it all and trying to move on. I deal with my issues everyday and hate it the most when my attacks effect the ones around me. Mainly my daughter. She starts to have nightmares and has to sleep in the bed with us or she screams bloody murder all night. She screams in her sleep and gets scared when we wake her. I feel terrible and try as hard as I can to make things better for her. When I go through these attacks, usually triggered by a lot of stress or an extreme event, I get sick and my body shakes uncontrollably all day and night. I can't eat, sleep and I get light headed and dizzy ti the point of fainting. Just making food for someone else gets me sick. I am the only one at home with our daughter and it scares me, which used to make my anxiety worse, but now it makes me angry and I try even harder to stable my mind and body. I don't want to pass this on to my girl and I don't want her to see me like that. I know deep down I can be better but it is a struggle and a process. I am now somewhat back to my 'normal' self. I didn't want anyone to know about my problems or try to help me at first because I thought I was failing. Failing my daughter, my husband and just being a failure to myself. I went to a great therapist, learned some new techniques and I try not to be too hard on myself. I take it all one day at a time and that's is okay with me. My daughter no longer has nightmares and is in her own bed again. My husband doesn't feel as stressed about my anxiety or health. I am taking care of my family and myself, once again! I started taking more pictures and doing my nails again. My girl even lets me stamp on her nails and do some art. As long as she holds still lol she is only two. But closely reaching three!
As long as we are safe and healthy, I am good. I will always have trouble but I can overcome it!
I have the most amazing and understanding husband! An incredible daughter and a family of support.
Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a great week!
Bye for now, Kayla.